I’m trying to find my way through this new year. So far, it hasn’t been entirely horrible, but I’ve definitely had moments where it could have been better.
The one question that keeps popping up is what some people have to be shady fucks. Seriously. I get that when people make a mistake it’s human nature to pass blame or avoid or hide or whatever, but when the sun is shining every which way on that mistake and there’s no where to hide, why not simply own it? Say sorry, make it right however you can, and move on.
That’s basically what I’m dealing with right now. Someone did wrong. It ended up costing me a lot of money and now I want it to be made right. Of course, the person who did wrong is trying everything to get out of paying.
But I’m doing my best not to dwell too much on that. There are better things brewing for me this year and I’d rather deal with that.
I’ve taken a step toward rebuilding my online empire. (Despite it being the most minor possible step, I’m counting it because at least it’s something.) I still harbour some ill will toward myself for letting my first internet empire crumble, but trying not to live in the past here.
Next I’m looking to work on my writing again. I’ve rekindled my passion for the story I started some years ago and maybe this year it will even see itself finished, edited, and published. That’s the goal anyway. I’ve even set up a tiny savings account solely for the making of this book: cover design, editing, marketing, and incidental publishing costs. It sends butterflies fluttering in my stomach each time I think about it.
Finally, I’m in a relatively comfortable financial position right now and that makes me feel somewhat good. Granted, it could be a better position, but it’s getting there. I just need to practice my good habits each day until they become second nature.
Now. Back to the grind.