It still hasn’t fully settled in on me that 2018 is over. I put in my planner that I should take some time today to consider my life choices, but when I sit down to do just that, I become sad. Why? I’m on the wrong side of 35 and haven’t accomplished near the amount of stuff I thought I’d have accomplished by now.
The reason? I’m not entirely sure. It’s not for lack of wanting. For the most part it’s not for lack of trying. It just seems my life has a habit of going sideways just when I think I’m heading down the right path. This year I’m hoping things will be different. In fact, I’m looking to make them different.
It began with the last few days of December 2018–officially the first week of 2019. I’m using at a way to trick my mind into believing I’m continuing to do something worthwhile rather than sitting down on the first and hurrying to catch up with my resolutions.
And early in December, I was chatting with a acquaintance–someone I hadn’t really had a true conversation with before then–and our discussion drifted onto the topic of self-sufficiency. She told me about finding the “why” for my choices. So, I’ve been reminding myself to consider my why each day. What I hope to achieve.
Based on that, I’ve come up with a baseline of good habits that I hope to develop over the course of this year and years to come: exercise (for health, and on a completely shallow level, a bangin’ body) and meditation (for sanity) first thing each morning. There are other habits on my list, but I figure if I can get those two in line, the rest will be cake.
Now it’s a matter of getting my habit tracker notebook in place and documenting my progress. So far, for the first week, I’ve been pretty good about it–haven’t missed a day of exercise yet, and only skimped (not skipped) on meditation once.
This year is filled with so much possibility. It truly is time for me to flip my life around and start going after what I truly desire because I’m positive that what’s going on now isn’t it.